Leave Lindsay Alone!

For Pete's sake, that girl can't use too much toilet paper without it being all over the news.

Chris Crocker, where are you?


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Good Lord...

This is the fucking case that never ends!

We are currently in Punishment phase, though I knew we would be there eventually since I pled guilty to one of the charges for reasons which shall remain undisclosed until all is said and done. The good news is that the jury found me Not Guilty on 3 of the remaining 5 charges. The 2 they found me guilty of, I can see why they would have reason to do so, not that I am actually guilty of them. But, I can see how some facts seemed questionable.

But ultimately, those 2 extra charges really don't matter, because the plan has always been to accept that big hit from the get go, get our side's information out there, then show them some good stuff at Punishment, which is happening now.

I don't know what is going to happen tomorrow. I may get probation, which is what our goal has been all along. Or I may get prison time up to 99 years.

So those of you of faith, please continue to pray for me. If I can post tomorrow, then that will mean I "won". If I don't post again, you'll know why as well.

Love to you all!

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Sunday Night

Once more unto the breach, dear friends, once more;

Though I fear I am extremely tired already. I've been roasted on the local news for 2 weeks already. People who had told me they would be character witnesses are backing out due to the extreme media attention.

I have to be honest, it's not looking good.


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Friday

Ok, what is there to say?

Adrian, who I have known since he was 4 years old and is now 16, sat on the witness stand and accused me of hurting him.

The uber-dramatic DA made me out to be a monster.

I am very tired and don't have much energy left.

The jury was allowed out of seclusion and allowed to go home Thursday due to the threat of bad weather.

Anyway.... Hearing him accuse me and claim that I hurt him was like a dagger in my chest. I cared very deeply for him as he was growing up. To hear him condemn me now is very very painful.

And my "friends" scattering and refusing to speak up on my behalf.....,

Anyway, jury reconvenes on Monday...... If I can update, I will.

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Tuesday

Prosecution rested today.

I take the stand tomorrow.

I heard from 3 of my character witnesses that they are going to have to back out. "Commitments", or "out of town", or "my lawyer advised me to not get involved since I work in the same district as the kid".

I feel whatever positive came from today's weak testimony has drained away, partly because of the plea my lawyers convinced me to make to the court. I should have stuck with what I wanted to do.

My life is forevermore fucked.

I'm tired and mentally weary; I will try to update tomorrow. If I don't, it means I've been remanded into the county jail.

Let me say since now that I appreciate you all's kind words and positive thoughts.


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Jan 31

Trial starts up again tomorrow. On Friday, my accuser was on the witness stand until 5:30 pm. Tomorrow, I am expecting his parents, teachers who will say he used to visit me in my office (not that I have ever denied that), and possibly "experts" on grooming. The female PhD I am expecting has been described to me as a "state whore", meaning she will testify to anything the state asks her to for a paycheck.

Anyway, send good thoughts my way.

Wednesday

It's 7:30 and I just got home. We didn't finish jury selection, which means it continues tomorrow.

This means the trial itself won't start until Friday.

However, I had a serious setback today with one of my expert witnesses. Without going into details (sorry Nelson), he is changing his assessment of me from being safe to dangerous because he said I didn't disclose all of the charges against me to him. My lawyers sent me to him, so I assumed he knew what he was supposed to be assessing, for fuck's sake. So my lawyers are now very very worried. A big piece of their strategy may just have been shot dead.

Not good for me. I feel sick to my stomach, I haven't eaten in 3 days, and I'm seriously considering throwing the towel in again. I am going to wait and see what the lawyers can work out with the "expert" before I decide. If it looks like he is useless, I am going to have to weigh the benefits of a plea deal. 20 years is better than 99, after all.

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Wednesday

Ok, jury selection is today. I am very nervous, my parents look like total wrecks. I'm not sure I have the strength to see this through to the end.

I'll try to write about what happens today once I return home, but no promises.


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Apology

I am trying to keep a strong face here at home so my mom doesn't totally fall apart. To be honest, I am scared as hell.

Here in South Texas, the general attitude is string the bastard up first and ask questions later. And for that reason, I am very concerned because I see the judge ignoring legal precedent to male it easier for the prosecution to string me up.

Anyway, I will let you guys know what transpires tomorrow.

Update

I had another hearing today. My lawyers have contended that the search warrant was illegal as was a subsequent one.

Judge will rule in the morning. I don't expect her to rule in my favor because she is very cognizant of what her constituents expect to see.

I had my first protesters today, a group called Bikers Against Child Abuse. They were leather clad "daddies" trying to intimidate me, not knowing that I have a relative in a biker gang known as Los Bandidos. One call from me would have dozens of REAL bikers sitting in court on my behalf. I don't want to go there, but I find these pretend bikers to be hilarious.

Anyway, jury selection is Wednesday.
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Monday News

I had another hearing today. My defense team requested academic/behavior records from my accusers' school. The ISD itself tried to block that, but the judge shut them down. Another good thing for me.

I have one final hearing tomorrow and it's a big one. My lawyers filled a motion that, if granted, effectively ends the case against me. My lawyers warned me not to get my hopes up because my particular judge rarely grants these motions. Other judges will, but mine likes things to go through trial. But, there is still a chance, so let's see what happens.

Still no cameras in court, which I have found odd, but I'm sure they'll be there eventually.


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Saturday's News

First off, my apologies for being so down and negative in my last post, but I had just come home from a2 hour hearing and then a 3 hour meeting with my legal "dream team" /sarcasm and I was not in a good mood.

As far as things stand currently, Monday, I may or may not have to be in court, depending on whether or not the judge is in a snit that morning. Tuesday is jury selection. I was warned that it would take all day and that I would feel like I had been beaten with a bat. Loverly. And then Wednesday begins the circus. I do have to meet with the "dream team" tomorrow afternoon. Not looking forward to that, because the last 2 meetings have had me ready to tell them both off for being asses, which I am sure everyone would agree would be a bad thing.

A good thing that happened. Due to an odd series of events that had nothing to do with the competence of my lawyers, I managed to get some of my pretrial limits lifted. So, yesterday, I was able to take care of a computer issue my mom was having and then go to Starbucks. Today, I had dinner at a very nice steak restaurant and then buy a book in a bookstore, things I have been barred from doing for the 3 years I've been waiting for trial. I turns out my lawyers could have requested these changes 3 FUCKING YEARS AGO, but didn't. It took me stumbling across an issue Thursday that got these restrictions changed. Yeah, thanks lawyers who cost me $50,000 dollars for nothing.

I really should leave their names and business addresses in a queued post to pop up in case I lose, so the world can lnow what they've done. As I've said, they are considered the best in the state. One was even named Best Criminal Defense Attorney for the city a few years back. Ha, I'd like to see some of that skill eventually.

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Update for Thursday

Ok guys, I'm in a pretty bad mood at the moment, so I am going to give a bare bones report.

I had a hearing today where many things happened, and most of the time I had no clue what the hell was going on.  Apparently, my two lawyers filed several motions seeking to narrow what they would be dealing with. The judge granted almost every single one the motions, so the lawyers were happy.

Next is jury selection on Tuesday the 25th, then the trial begins on Wednesday. The lawyers expect it to wrap up the following Tuesday.

Clearly, I can't go into details of what all the DA is going to throw at me, but my lawyers are concerned that it is going to be a hard fight, and to be honest, I realized today, as I sat there being glared at by the judge, by the court clerk, by the newly minted young lawyers who went to observe and pick up pointers, that I don't have it in me to do this. I just don't.

Tomorrow morning, I am instructing my lawyers to discuss the possibility of a plea deal with the DA. If they offer a number that wouldn't amount to a death sentence, I am going to take it.

You see, the crime I am charged with carries a 5-99 year sentence. If I lose, the DA will most assuredly ask for the 99 to "send a message". I am not a gambler. My lawyers are very good, but they have their concerns. And I really am just drained.

Now, the DA may not accept a plea deal anyway. As I've mentioned, the younger lawyer is chomping at the bit to try my case. She has never tried a big "splashed across the news" case like mine, so she may not even entertain the notion, or offer a ridiculous number so that I would have no choice but to refuse. In that case, we'll be off to trial.

When I hear something next, I'll let you guys know.

Filler Info

I found out today that the family accusing/suing me has filed a lawsuit against my old school district. Suddenly, it all makes sense.

I used to help buy shoes/clothes for the boys when their dad was having a hard time with his business. Once I tried to put distance between myself and them, I was hit with a charge of sexual assault.

It seems to me that these people, Mexican nationals, are out for a buck.

But my homosexuality has become a rallying point for the DA, and I am going to be painted as a gay pervert.

I have a hearing Thursday afternoon..I have been warned by my attorneys to expect a host of cameras. Look at your local news, chances are very great that my face will be on your screen today.

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I met with the lawyers today. I have to say that after they left, I am now feeling worse than ever.

Obviously I can't go into detail on the evidence the DA is preparing to use against me, but once my guys laid it all out and explained what the DA's strategy/argument is going to be, even I have to concede that it looks bad and, if I were a juror, I'd be hard pressed to give me the benefit of the doubt.

I have court this Thursday for pretrial motions, whatever those are, and then full blown trial starting Monday.

My mind is somewhat in shock still at this point; I was fully planning on winning a Not Guilty verdict, and now I am trying to figure what maximum sentence I'd be willing to plea bargain to in order to avoid a trial. Right now, the DA is offering a 40 year "deal" which would make me dead before I got out of prison. Unfortunately, our DA was pasted in this last election for being soft on sex offenses, and I am very certain that she is going to see my case as a way to win points with the public.

To be honest, I am not sure I'll be posting here again. I mean really, what is there left to say? If something positive comes from my trial on Monday and Tuesday, I'll post it here.

If this blog is never updated again, you'll know why.

Thanks for reading the last year and a half of my nonsense and take care.

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Cool Photo Wednesday

Well, I made my appointment today. I can't say that I left feeling positive or negative. I answered question, he wrote stuff down. I have to fill out some paperwork and mail it back to him. Yeah, I don't see how this is going to help any, but it set me back another $150. I swear, at this rate, I am going to have to sell off a kidney and several pints of blood just to be able to buy food. I suppose the fact that my date is coming up soon is a good thing, otherwise I'd be completely out of money.

Anyway, here are some cool photographs that I found recently that I hope you guys enjoy.

Update on Stuff

Well, I wasn't able to make my appointment yesterday (Monday). It wasn't my choice, of course. In the interest of brevity and the fact that I try not to put to many specifics, I wasn't clear on what the problem was that was keeping me from going. It wasn't because of a lack of transportation or anything as mundane as that.

To be succinct, whenever I want to leave the house to do something, I have to let a court liaison know first. I let her know where I need to go, she verifies if she wishes to, and then logs it in. They have no power to deny me the right to leave for work (if I had a job), go to the doctor, meet with lawyers, etc etc. Well, my new liaison is something of a...what is the word...little person with a little power who wields it like a sword. When I told her I needed to leave town for a meeting, she blew me off saying she had meetings to attend and would get back to me that afternoon (Thursday). All Thursday went by, no call back. I called her again Friday, waited all day, no call back. I called her at 8:00 am Monday, no answer, no call back.

So, I informed my lawyers. They both called her. I am not privy to what their conversations were, but she called me this morning sounding very very polite, which is atypical of her, and said she didn't know why I had informed my lawyers that she had not allowed me to go, that she had already logged in my trip. I felt like screaming, "LIIIIIIIEEEEEEEESSSSS!" into the phone, but I didn't. So, the short of it: I have been "allowed" time tomorrow, Wednesday, to go to a nearby city and speak to someone who can help me with my defense.

I also spoke to the lawyers today. One said he has hired a private investigator, though I really don't know what he is going to be doing, and I didn't ask. Oh, and when I say "he" hired a PI, I mean he contacted him but I'll have to foot the bill, which should be about $1,000 in addition to the $50,000 I already paid the lawyers. Justice, ladies and gentlemen, is apparently blind and not cheap. The other one said that they would all be "humping my case like crazy" the next couple of weeks to get ready for my January 24th court date. I think I know what he meant by that comment, but I chose not to ask about that one either.

I am growing rather more frantic and insane as each day passes. I still am having a very hard time envisioning anything other than a terrible outcome from this, but I am trying to keep it together.

Thanks to Seth and Jay for the comments on the last update. And thanks to Micky as well for almost always replying to my posts even though I don't reciprocate as often as I should. Thanks guys. It's too bad I can't get you to speak on my behalf in court. :/

The Lost Hero

For those of you who visit my actual blog page instead of reading posts through an RSS feed, you may have noticed that I have had the book The Lost Hero by Rick Riordan over there --> for quite some time. It has taken me an inordinate amount of time to complete a novel written for children. Why is that, you may ask. Could it be that I have the reading ability of a mentally challenged 3rd grader or the average Fox News viewer? No, of course not, dear reader. Unlike them, I can read and form my own opinions on events, reports, and documents.

No, it has taken me so very long to complete The Lost Hero because, to be perfectly frank, it was so very painful to get through. Now, in the interest of full disclosure, I have to say that I read Riordan's first novel, The Lightning Thief, and enjoyed it. His next couple of novels, however, were not as well written.

And now this.

Percy Jackson, hero of the first series is absent, with the role of Hero being filled by a boy named Jason who has no memory of who he is. He is joined by another boy, a son of Hephaestus, and a girl, a daughter of Aphrodite. This combination felt to me like a similar group to that led by Percy in The Lightning Thief. A boy hero, a male friend, a female friend who then travel from place to place, coming into contact with gods/goddesses who want to help or hinder them. With the exception of the names, the plot of The Lost Hero could be swapped out with any of Riordan's other books with minimal effort.

As to the characters themselves, there is little to no character development. We learn a smidge about each demigods' backgrounds but not enough to make you care about them in any way, shape, or form. There is a great deal of whining and complaining about how each character has had a "hard life". Sorry, but I am not interested in reading a bunch of teenagers whine about the world. Besides that, each character shows little personality and are all shallow.

In this novel, Riordan tries to bring in some of the history detailed in The Hesiod: Gaea, Ouranos, the Titans, etc, but he sanitizes it for the kids. For example, the Titan Kronos uses a scythe to cut off Ouranos' genitals while Ouranos lay with his wife Gaea. Kronos throws the genitals into the ocean. The foam that gathers around the floating genitals spawns Aphrodite, who emerges as an adult god from the sea. Needless to say, Riordan's version is much changed, changed to the point of being wrong. And this bothers me, probably because I have 18 university hours in Greek philosophy. I've read The Hesiod. I've read Aristotle, I've read Plato, I've read Aristophanes, and I find it insulting that someone would take these works and cannibalize them as his own. All of his background information in simply lifted from Greek and Roman mythology. Other than sanitizing the sexual elements, his background storylines already exist. What author does that?

All in all, I cannot recommend The Lost Hero. Between the very vanilla heroes and the reused storylines, I found The Lost Hero to be a chore to read and not worth the time I put into it.

January 7th Update

I have decided to start drinking again, because why the hell not?

My lawyers contacted me yesterday. They informed me that they are already putting together a strategy for trial. They also wanted me to travel to a nearby city to meet with someone they think could help. I have an appointment at 10 am this Monday, but it doesn't look like I will be able to keep it. That does worry me to a degree; how can I work on defense if I can't get to where I need to be.

Hm...

Well, there is still a couple weeks to go.

EDIT: 8:57 pm: We are now on drink 2. Tasty....

Edit 2: 10:54 pm: Finishing drink 3...considering another....


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Well well well...

Or not so well, I suppose.
My wireless access is acting up, so I am unable to go online with my laptop. Instead, this post is being written on my mobile phone through my 3G coverage. This also means I can't post a nice picture to accompany the words because this app places my uploaded photos in a weird folder that people can't access easily. Oh well.

I had a picture I wanted to share of a box my niece made for me that I though was quite nice. She took the Christmas cracker paper from our Williams Sonoma Christmas crackers and used them to decoupage a box. It came out really nice and I wanted to show it off here. Meh...

Finally, for those of you guys that have been following for a while know that I am in the midst of a legal fight for my life. I had my court date reset a few months ago to this month, January 24th to be specific. Needless to say, I am devolving into a nervous wreck again and am fairly heavily medicated. I try to stay away from pills and such, but pretty much since New Year's day, I've been having severe anxiety attacks. This means, pills are a must.

My plan is to still post my typical nonsense to help me keep my mind occupied, but I'm not sure how long that will last. Either way, I will try not to just disappear without an explanation.

For the faithful among you, please keep me in your prayers.

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